For creating fabulous weather before March. A better side effect to a horrible occurrence couldn't be created with all the drugs in the world.

It's funny to think that the relationship I held as the end all be all, has crumbled down into a deep ravine of regret, and frustration. I tried to salvage the wreckage of my relationship with Jennie but alas, it never recovered from the first rough patch we encountered some years ago. Sometimes, the shoe simply doesn't fit. I accept that, and I hope she does the same.

Moving on, I am not going to let my self slip into another expressionless state of suffering. I plan to use these new found feelings of angst as reason to write. From the ashes, rose the phoenix...

So I've done 2 deviations in a week, which since 2005 hasn't happened. It feels good. I also feel the hiatus I took was as lengthy as it needed to be, merely because it took that long to move on from where I was in my writing. Teenage angst fueled by Cannabis was only getting me so far, and I needed to evolve out of that, and into something more. I feel that transformation has occurred and I can finally move forward with my writing.

With that said, I look forward to checking out the archives of old deviant watches, as well as adding more to my watch list.

It's been nearly 3 years since I posted anything, and I'm eternally greatful the server didn't delete my account for being so idle for so long.

I have been in... what I can best describe as, a prison of consciousness until recent bouts with depression have forced the need for an outlet to return. I'm hoping to aid in the process of dealing with my angst the same way i did so long ago, but with a different outlook and perspective.

With that said, go read the latest poem I wrote. It's free verse, something i rarely ever endorsed in the past, but now I see the appeal of just letting words flow, weather or not the rhyme.

I have some drawings I've done recently that I want to post. I need to find a scanner.

Who knows, I might write something soon, but I'm not too sure. My mind is else where, since I'm going to Denver soon for a bitchin rave. We'll see what results in my waiting.